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I tried to be good, apparently being good wasn’t enough. People took advantages from me.
I tried to lie just to avoid questions, that lead back to me. I lied to myself.
I tried to be honest and tell the truth. People just hated me.
I tried to hide myself, they thought I was avoiding them.

I stood there, had the fears of what you might do to me. They thought the same and became the monsters first.

I’ve had enough, my little heart’s stuffed with everyday’s blues. I’ve laughed enough. I’ve lived long enough to see the worst in people. By the summertime of next year, all of these will be just bad memories. Memories that can never be erased, no matter what. But I hope I can erase the traces of the people who caused those memories.

I wanted to be happy too, like everyone else. But then again what is happiness? All people looking for it, day by day. Wondering if such things exist. I read the newspaper, why did those men do such horrible things?

There’s always a reason to feel not good at the end of the day.

I don't want to end this life in haste, I need to think clearly. Ending my life would only kill the chances of my life getting better.

Perhaps, there is no point in living at all. But by continuing to live, I may be able to find some interesting things or moments which are letting me to think that this is worth my living. A reason, maybe. Or someone whom I live for.
Deep within her is a sadness unseen by many.

This is for Alex, my dear friend. I love you.
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St3v-Mylano Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
This verse is very deep, it express the contradictions we face in everyday life, if only I could say to say to Alex that no matter what good/bad things you do people will still judge you, cause we can't escape from friction of differences with other people. I just learn one somber thing that we cannot make every single person happy, but at least we can try to make ourselves and those who matter happy.
Aheng711 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for reading this and also your opinion :)
I lost contact with Alex. I've been worrying.
DoneWithLove Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You made my tears fall.... Alex seems a very precious friend to you.
Aheng711 Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
yes, precious one^^
WhitePlumFragrance Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Very powerful and quite deep. 
Aheng711 Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you very much for spending your time to read this :)
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